3rd times the charm

sorry i have neglected you dear readers, but i have been very busy

big news, rob asked me to marry him in january anmd i accepted, but with much trepidation

thias is my 3rd engagement since i was 16, my friends have started calling me the runaway groom

the first one at 16 lasted 12 hours, he asked me in tescos at 10 am, and i caught him shagging someone at the engagament party 12 hours later

the second was giles, that one lasted a week and ended because i realised the engagment was just a band aid to fix problems that couldnt be fixed

me and rob have been enagaged now for 2 months amd things are still going well, we are making plans, booking venues and purchasing the necessary things, so i guess im the runaway groom no more (though the wedding isnt till april 2012, so i still got time to fuck it up lol joking!)

more soon my loves

matt polar!

conffessions of a former slut

this post is very much a conffessional because so manmy young guys and girls are being so risky with your sexual health

i lost my virginity at 14, i never knew the masns name and it was far from romantic, and i was far too young to be doing what i was doing, but i was safe and wore a condom

im not going to lie when i have been single i have put myself a bout a fair bit, however its not all fun flings and see you laters!

during my time as a free and single man i had one shagf stalk me big time despite being told im now in a happy commited relationship, to the point i have had to change my number twice

also being young and savvy you may think this will never happen to you, but in todays society you rubn the risk of being sexually assaulted or raped by a shag or a one night stand, bare in mind in most cases you wont know the man from adam, and also people lie on line

in my experience, one "friend" tried to get me very drunk, and then threw himself at me, despite my saying no, so he then became more assertive, undoing my buttons, so i took action and i kneed him square in the balls and took myself home.

so many guys and girls these days dont say no when they should, it angers and upsets me, just because youve gone all that way or they have, does not mean you are obligated to do anything! dont be pressured into it! my friend has a 3 strike system,

strike one- erm what you doing?- this is if a date gets too handsy, and allows them a chance to correct themselves and all be forgotted

strike 2- seriously dude wtf- last chance to stop

strike 3- you kick bite scratch scream, do whatever you have to do to get them off you, and as soon as they are off you you leave, dont allow them chance to try again

take it from someone who has been in that situation, it is no pleasant, they will accuse it of being your fault but believe m,e its not, and the feeling of being used shall and will pass, but if you can avoid it happening in the first place, all the better

and always have condom,s and lube on you, incase the mood does take you, never bareback a stranger! that is just suicide in todays society!

have fun out there but stay safe!

Matt polar!

if you like it then you better put a ring on it

small note, how does one pick a size for a cock ring

dont wanna get one thats too small nor too big

decisions decisions!

matt polar x

calling all big boys

hey!

are you hung? got proof? open to talk anonymously? message me on here,  need guys to interview for a future blog post

WATCH THIS SPACE!

meeting the bfs bff

right so sorry for not writing have had nothing to  write comment or suggest 

however now i have something to vent about

so tomorrow me and the spaceman are going to London for a day trip, and he announced today i get to meet the bff

now i know everyone says that meeting the parents is the scariest thing to do, thats a cake walk in my opinion because a boy or a girl will just like you more if their parents hate you! the bff however is  another story, if a bff hates you that is a big red  x next to your  name!

wish me luck tomorrow, i just hope my shyness doesnt come across as frosty as i  usually do! :s

the B word

the spaceman wants to come see me in a show im in

i asked him what i shouldintroduce him as

"your boyfriend ofcourse!" he beamed "its what ive told people you are!"

i blushed, its nice when someone suggests it first :)

i don't claim to be perfect, i know i'm damaged goods..

i dont know how it happened, i honestly dont, its madness but i shall start from the begining

i met the spaceman 2 weeks ago and we instantly became great friends, laughing and joking, a week later i find out he likes me, like really likes me! and i know i should be thrilled but an alarm bell rings in my head

see, not to go into too much detail, years ago i was told by a doctor that my mental heath was like a ticking time bomb and chances are one day, i will go crazy.

This revelation has played on my mind from that day to this, how can i drag someone else into this?

The spaceman and i lay on the sofa bed, and i find myself admitting this fear to him, just like it was nothing, inside i braced myself for the "Oh is that the time, im gonna go...." speech i'd heard before, but he didn't, he looked me in the eye and said "i like you, if it happens, i ain't gonna run".....

"what did you expect him to say!" the greek said to me bemused by my reaction

"i dont know" i lamented, "i guess im used to guys being jerks!"

"i still cant believe you told him!" she sighed "the doctor said it was a 50/50 thing!"

"********!" i said defensively "imagine you were sold a second hand car, wouldnt you wanna know if the steering wheel stuck!"

"yes matt, but your not a car!" she rolled her eyes "so, how did the rest of the evening go"

after i had made my revelation the spaceman totally of his own free will opened up about recent events, his dad had died tragically, and he hadnt allowed himself time to grieve, but he admitted being with me was the first thing to make him happy, truly happy, for months.

"dude, marry him now! if you dont i will!" the greek beamed

"hun, we are taking it slow" i smiled, genuinely, for the first time in a long time, my eyes crinkling, "but lets just say, hes deffinatley a keeper!"